WHAT HAPPENED?!
I LITERALLY just ate this. I thought it would be healthy and low cal BUT IT WASN’T. Why didn’t I clock it in first?!?! WHY!!
Oh boy….
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Jan 4
Family
Sorry I haven’t been posting as frequently as I usually do. This is kind of like a journal, right? Well, I am going to say that it is. I have definitely been going through some family stuff. I wont get into a lot of specifics, but just be sure to send some positive thoughts and prayers to my mom. She’s awesome, and wonderful but needs some lovin for sure.
(also, this is my mom as a jedi)
I am going back to California to see her soon and to help her with her house. I wish I could be there more, you know. It’s hard living 400 miles away. Well, I’m not going into much more than that. I may post again later today though :) Keep posted!
The Universe is Testing Me
Well, test after test is being hurled at me this week. From free mexican food lunch, to my boyfriend wanting culver’s for dinner to having not gone grocery shopping this week, which is causing a strain on my diet.
So, to keep things consistent this week, this is what I found in the breakroom today:
As you can see from the bottom 2 photos, I had a lunch ready to go! And I stuck to it too… Despite having to stand in the break room for 4 full minutes with that delicious pizza aroma.
Goodness gracious, what’s next universe?!
Having Some Support
As you can probably tell from the last couple of posts, I am finally having my first real honest-to-goodness breakdown. Crying in my cubicle this morning because of all the fear running through my head, I had but one place to turn. A friend.
I am so LUCKY to have many friends that are willing to help me along this journey, and I am sure I’ll be calling them out from time to time. This morning, however, it was my friend Michelle that came to save the day…
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Guilty x1000
Alright, I know I posted about it earlier today, but I just can’t seem to kick feeling guilty about all that Mexican food I had today. Since then, I have eaten a sandwich at Jimmy John’s for dinner, and that’s about it, and I DIDN’T go to the gym like I had planned… Ughhh…. I need to stop judging myself.
(judging owl from here)
I guess I’m just scared now that I will make this mistake again. Somehow justify binging on something. I seriously don’t trust myself.
I feel like a lot of things in my life this week are out of control. My apartment is a mess, my dog keeps pooping on our carpet while we are sleeping (despite numerous attempts to take her outside to poop – she was potty trained last week, I don’t know what’s going on, but I digress), I’m staying up too late because of video games, my laundry is way past overdue and I am letting work assignments pile up a little bit, which is something I feel like I NEVER do. Sometimes while on this journey, I feel like it’s all just too much. That changing my eating and exercise habits are enough, and all the other responsibilities are falling to the way-side because I feel so overwhelmed.
I felt like I had better control of all this in the last couple weeks, so hopefully this is just some kind of silly mood swing that will soon go away. Well, now to try and go to bed without stressing about my mishap today. Goodnight!
