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Dec 11

Getting Back on the Saddle

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Well, my last post was August 14, and today is now December 11. Needless to say (but, I’ll say it anyways), that I had done the inevitable. I had pretty much given up on this blog and on WW. Well, I am happy to report, that within the last few months, my roller coaster dieting and exercise has landed me here. At 222 lbs, which is realistically only 1 pound weight gain since my best loss. So, I am still down 14 pounds, which is a great place to “start over.”

I have decided to return back to Weight Watchers. I started doing Atkins (I know, I know), knowing full well the harm it could do, and rationalizing it with, “well, it’s also harmful to be overweight, so I’ll take my chances.” I actually thrive on Atkins. My last big weight loss was my last quarter in college, and I it was 20 lbs. So, after having somewhat of a plateau with WW, I decided to stop blogging, so I wouldn’t be judged, and go back to Atkins.

Well, I had a lovely chat with my doctor the other day, and she informed me that I had high cholesterol, something I had never had before. Well, I decided that my diet of bacon and red meat, while effective in losing weight, had to go.

So, here I am! Back to blogging and WW. Merry Christmas.

Aug 14

A Better Day

Alright, well today is a better day. A fresh start. I did well yesterday as well. I posted in this blog, which is quite a feat these days it seems, and I stayed within 5+ of my daily goal. I went over, but not to the level that I usually do.

Stepping on the scale this morning, I was already 3 lbs lighter, but I have a feeling that had to do with my woman-ness approaching and also my body releasing ALL the the beer I drank this weekend.

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(This is what I looked like. Yes, i know…)

Well, I am ready to keep this up. Lets see how I do :)

Aug 13

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Derailing

Derailing. I think this is the word that describes it the best. I am spiraling out of control. Just weighed in this morning with a 7 POUND WEIGHT GAIN. I know this is my fault. I went to the lake this weekend and binged on beer and chips and god knows what else. I’m not sure what else to say about that. I know what I did wrong, I know what i need to do, I just need to do it…

Here is to not having a breakdown? Ya, sure that’s it….
Hopefully I have a more positive post in the future.

Aug 10

Well, Now I Know

Well, like the title says, I now know why I haven’t been losing any weight. I mean, I had a good idea. I am STILL not tracking anything and working out can really only help so much. So today, I decided to go ahead and clock in EVERYTHING I ate today.

So let me break this down for you. I get 36 WW points allotted to me for one day. Today, I had 65 points worth of food! 65!!! And I didn’t even binge like I have a few times in the last month. This is a normal 3 meal day!

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With that said, I needed to come to blog and vent and stress. Maybe this is exactly what I needed to see to jump start me back up again. I want to lose the weight. I want this so badly. Now if only I could get it together.

Aug 3

12 Weeks

Well, has someone fallen off the bandwagon with this blog, or what? So sorry for being MIA these last few… weeks? Man. Also, thank you to Chara for texting me about updating this blog. It might have been a few more weeks had she not asked.

Now, while I have stopped posting as often, I am proud to say that I am still battling with staying on the weight watchers program. It’s been tough, and my success rate has been dismal for the most part, but I am still battling it out. Also, I am not starting over at square one, I am still between 12-15 lbs of weight loss, which is good and bad. It’s bad, because I haven’t moved out of that range for a month, but good in the sense that I haven’t gained much more than a pound back.

However, the plateau is definitely my fault. I have been struggling. I’m pretty sure since the 4th of July I haven’t tracked hardly anything. Tracking is about 90% of the battle. I’ve pretty much been eating whatever for a full month. The fact that I haven’t gained more than a pound or two overall is a miracle.

I have been back on track with tracking and working out though this week. I am SO SO SO close to my first WW goal of 218 pounds, so I have been extra motivated. Although, I have been weighing myself every morning and the results are dismal. I either am not moving a pound, or (like this morning) have gained one back. I think it might have something to do with my PMS slowly approaching. I mean, last month I had a 7 lb gain in one week and then an 8 lb loss the next. Now that I have been doing this for 12 weeks, I can see these patterns and know to not be discouraged.

On a different note, I am starting to see myself differently. Not so much in a satisfaction from weight loss, but more so in a, “I’m effing hot, even at a larger size” kind of way. I am starting to feel more confident and putting my mind in a good place. It’s helpful, because when I do have victories, it’s just like icing on the (low-fat) cake. Instead of me picking on all these insecurities, like, “well, I lost 5 lbs, but my thighs still jiggle and my face is still round,” it’s more like, “man, I lost 5 lbs and I look EVEN BETTER.” It’s a much healthier way to work on yourself.

Well, that’s all I have for this update post. :)

 

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