12 Weeks

Well, has someone fallen off the bandwagon with this blog, or what? So sorry for being MIA these last few… weeks? Man. Also, thank you to Chara for texting me about updating this blog. It might have been a few more weeks had she not asked.

Now, while I have stopped posting as often, I am proud to say that I am still battling with staying on the weight watchers program. It’s been tough, and my success rate has been dismal for the most part, but I am still battling it out. Also, I am not starting over at square one, I am still between 12-15 lbs of weight loss, which is good and bad. It’s bad, because I haven’t moved out of that range for a month, but good in the sense that I haven’t gained much more than a pound back.

However, the plateau is definitely my fault. I have been struggling. I’m pretty sure since the 4th of July I haven’t tracked hardly anything. Tracking is about 90% of the battle. I’ve pretty much been eating whatever for a full month. The fact that I haven’t gained more than a pound or two overall is a miracle.

I have been back on track with tracking and working out though this week. I am SO SO SO close to my first WW goal of 218 pounds, so I have been extra motivated. Although, I have been weighing myself every morning and the results are dismal. I either am not moving a pound, or (like this morning) have gained one back. I think it might have something to do with my PMS slowly approaching. I mean, last month I had a 7 lb gain in one week and then an 8 lb loss the next. Now that I have been doing this for 12 weeks, I can see these patterns and know to not be discouraged.

On a different note, I am starting to see myself differently. Not so much in a satisfaction from weight loss, but more so in a, “I’m effing hot, even at a larger size” kind of way. I am starting to feel more confident and putting my mind in a good place. It’s helpful, because when I do have victories, it’s just like icing on the (low-fat) cake. Instead of me picking on all these insecurities, like, “well, I lost 5 lbs, but my thighs still jiggle and my face is still round,” it’s more like, “man, I lost 5 lbs and I look EVEN BETTER.” It’s a much healthier way to work on yourself.

Well, that’s all I have for this update post. :)